I remember when I was a teenager it was quite difficult to discern out of all the voices and noise around me, who the true ‘me’ really was. Believe you/me, I made some really poor choices along the way to discovery. Thank goodness I’m still alive to have learned from these as a few of them could have gone south fast.
Over the years, I have come to understand about myself that if a decision I made in the past keeps me awake at night, that’s most likely NOT who I am. And it will continue to come up until I reconcile with my past.
Surprisingly to me, this is the barometer with which many of my current decisions are made nowadays.
Hopefully, I’ve paid my dues for my past. If not, then bring it on. I accept the price.
Until then, I’m sleeping much better these days.